Most women become mothers by accident, some by choice, a
few by social pressures and a couple by habit.
This year, nearly 100,000 women will become mothers of handicapped children.
Did you ever wonder how mothers of handicapped children are chosen?
Somehow I visualize God hovering over the earth selecting his from
propagation with great care and deliberation. As he observes,
he instructs his angels to make notes in a giant ledger.

"Armstong, Beth; son; patron saint, Matthew.
"Forrest, Marjorie; daughter; patron saint, Cecelia.
"Rudledge, Carrie; twins; patron saint.. give her Gerard.
He's used to profanity."
Finally, he passes a name to an angel and smiles,
Give her a handicapped child."
The angel is curious. "Why this one, God?
She's so happy."
"Exactly," smiles God.
Could I give a handicapped child to a mother who does not know laughter?
That would be cruel.
"But has she patience?" asks the angel.
"I don't want her to have too much patience or she will drown in a sea of self-pity and despair.
Once the shock and resentment wears off, she'll handle it.
"I watched her today. She has that feeling of self and
independence that is so rare and so necessary in a mother.
You see, the child I'm going to give her has his own world
and that's not going to be easy."
"But, Lord, I don't think she even believes in you."
God smiles. "No matter. I can fix that. This one is perfect.
She has just enough selfishness."
The angel gasps, "Selfishness? Is that a virtue?"
God nods. "If she can't seperate herself from the child occasionally,
she'll never survive. Yes, there is a women whom I will bless
with a child less than perfect. She doesn't realize it yet, but
she is to be envied. She will never take for granted a 'spoken word.'
She will never consider a 'step' ordinary.
When her child says 'Momma' for the first time, she will
be present at a miracle and know it!
When she describes a tree or a sunset to her blind child, she
will see it as few people ever see my creations.
"I will permit her to see clearly the things I see,
Ignorance
Cruelty
Prejudice
and allow her to rise above them.
She will never be alone. I will be at her side every minute of
every day of her life because she is doing my work as surely
as she is here by my side."
"And what about her patron saint?"
asks the angel, his pen poised in midair.
God smiles.
"A mirror will suffice."

The little boy grew up and became a
man, still wondering why mothers cry.
So he finally put in a call to God and
when God got on the phone the man said
"God, why do mothers cry so easily."
God said, "You see son, when I made
mothers they had to be special. I made
their shoulders strong enough to
carry the weight of the world, yet gentle
enough to give comfort. I gave them
an inner strength to endure childbirth
and the rejection that many times comes
from their children. I gave them a
hardiness that allows them to keep
going when everyone else gives up,
and to take care of their families through
sickness and fatigue without complaining.
I gave them the sensitivity to love
their children under all circumstances,
even when their child has hurt them
very badly. This same sensitivity helps
them to make a child's boo-boo feel better
and helps them share a teenager's anxieties
and fears. I gave them a tear to shed. It's
theirs exclusively to use whenever it is
needed. It's their only weakness. It's a tear for
mankind."

1) that someone would say to you... do what YOU need to do?
2) that someone would say to you... I'm behind you 100%?
3) that someone would say to you... I trust YOUR judgment?
4) that someone would say to you... this is BULLSHIT...
no other way to put it?
5) that someone would say to you... YOU are TOO GOOD for this?
6) that NO ONE would say to you... I understand what you're going through?
7) that NO ONE would say to you... there must be something to learn from this?
8) that NO ONE would say to you... but, what if you did it THIS way?
9) that someone who has hurt you in the past...
and, YES, we have all been hurt.. by jackasses, by assholes,
by people who INTEND to hurt us... would say to you...
*I* was wrong; I shouldn't have done what I did?
10) that someone, ANYONE, would say to you...
you do NOT have to be "above this?"
Being human, hurting, giving into human needs is OK?

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